Friday, 19 April 2013

Birthday Butterflies!



. . . ~Hello my lovelies! x .. Its only going to be a small blog today as im planning on doing a biggy in the next week or so due to it being my birthday on Wednesday! ~I can't wait! .. Even though im pretty sure my sister is more exited then i am! Shes got me a new wig and she's really exited to give it to me aha! .. I wonder what it looks like ~I love surprises... Speaking of which, she also told me that her, my mom and auntie have planned something special for me .. *Scared face!*

. . . I have so much stuff planned for my 18th and im defiantly going to be taking lodes of picture of the food and drinks that im going to eat at the restaurant im going to with my family! .. And not to mention my cake!

~Not long ago i applied for Wolverhampton University, and they got back to me about an interview! .. Unfortunately i had to change it due to it being set on my birthday (what are the odds) .. But now i have it for the first of may ~Nervous!
I just got back from a small shopping trip with my mom actually.. She treated me to some stuff early aha! .. I've tried on so many clothes today its unreal ~And i managed to find a cute black chiffon top for the interview .. As well as some great items including some Hello Kitty things too! -- Im mentally a 12 year old.




Im so in love with my new clothes!
Many Hello Kitty things .. Eeek! 


. . . ~See you soon!
Peace~Love~ Integrity 


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<--- Heres a hot chocolate .. Yummy.. xoxo

Sunday, 17 March 2013

Night to remember or to forget? .. Hmm




. . . ~Hey guy's! .. Hope you've had a good weekend so far! ~Must have been better then mine.

I've been looking forward to this weekend for a while now and its just so happens to be a complete disaster .. Want to know why?
. . . ~ basically in short terms ~Dave told me to met him at The Haygate pub and when i got there, it was empty... so i met up with a friend at the train station, purchased a few things and headed up to the ercal (baring in mind that the whole time it was pissing it down with rain) .. so before we even got to the camp site i was drenched .. i got into a tent and had a few small drinks with friends and that was relativity fine .. then the temp dropped like a mother fucker .. all of the inside of the tent got wet and muddy and we all decided to just go .. we wouldn't of made it through the night! .. we were there for like 2 hours and it ended up being really dark! ...... now this is where it gets funny (Kinda) .. it was pitch black and we had no lights or anything .. it was still heavily raining AND beginning to snow but we were still gonna go anyway ... it was hard enough getting there when it was lightly raining due to the bushes and tree's you had to climb past .. and it was stupidly slippy! but you could see thanks to day light! ~So coming out when extra wet and dark was a nightmare ..

Me being me ~I panic when i can't see or don't know what im doing .. i had to be hand led over roots and loose leaves and branches .. to come to a massive ditch/stream thing .. seeing as there was like 12 of us, we each took it in turns to jump across .. BARING IN MIND IT WAS DARK AND SLIPPY! .. but everybody did it with ease ... not me ~I fell right in the stream .. wow it was cold.

I had to be fished out by a friend, then have my bag rescued.

so we carried on walking and then i fell over again, flat on my back, mud everywhere .. people pissing them selves .. go me

by this time i was practically eating my make up due to it running down my face.
We managed to get a taxi to the haygate where i fixed my face and my mop and went to a guys house to crash .. my bag snapped thanks to the weight of every bodies cans i was carrying ~Brilliant

We managed to get to a friends house to crash there for the night .. the best part was watching Silent Hill 2 and eating cookies ... but followed by no sleep due to shivering because i was still in my wet clothes with a shitty blanket tossed over me .. yayyyy!

This morning was awful ~I had to get 3 buses home, still in my wet clothes, puddled and broken bag and curly hair .. now i can't stop sneezing ..
But my mom being wonderful! ~She's off out to get me some pink 
lucozade and told me to wrap up warm and stay in bed watching films ... I feel so ill and pukey (╯x╰)

So thats pretty much my night! ~I can't help but laugh when i think about it really .. Anything like this ever happen to you guys? x x x x





Peace~Love~ Integrity 


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Monday, 25 February 2013

Valentines




. . . ~Hello angels! .. I hope you all had a lovely Valentines day! I sure did :3 ..
I spent it with David Samuels, a gorgeous and lovely guy im dating. He surprised me with a delicious candle lit meal complete with wine, chocolates, flowers and a beautiful card! ^w^ .. We both talked for hours about everything! ~The meal was followed by some cute kisses and anime that's new to me called 
Elfen Lied .. I only watched two episodes but it seems to have a really grabbing story so far and im looking forward to watching the rest of it!



Quality is pretty bad due to having a rubbish phone but this was the table before we started eating!

. . . ~Half term has just ended and i guess i could say that its been the worst! .. I've hardly had time to myself at all due to cramming in as much course work as i can for my new project .. But its based on Kawaii so i don't mind so much ^x^ .. And i also found out that im 2 marks away from an A* on my Bubble Goth project! .. Super happy but surprised as i half expected to fail.

. . . ~Im really looking forward to Wednesday! .. Should be seeing Dave so that will brighten up my week ^w^ .. Still can't help but be shy around him still! .. Eeek! *passes out*





Its my birthday soon! ~18 year old me get ready! .. My beautiful sister is getting me a set of lovely wigs but i have no idea what colours to choose .. I have my eyes set on a pail pink or blue, What do you guys think? x

My favorite ones are this one, and this one .. Oh! and this one .. I have over 70 links saved and i just can't decide! .. Better sleep on it x 









Peace~Love~ Integrity 


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Wednesday, 6 February 2013

Dress review



. . . ~Hello my lovelies! .. I've finally finished my dress and im super proud of it (if i do say so myself ^w^) .. 

I based my work on the theme of Bubble Goth by researching the pop star Kerli as she designs and makes all her own garments and jewellery. Due to her being the initial creator of the Bubble Goth Stereotype and her unique style, it really inspired me to base my work on the cute gothic fashion.

During the unit I looked at the designers and celebrities who are recognized and associated with this style and how they have adapted it to their own personal style.

I adore all things Alternative and I was drawn to the gothic subculture because it’s so unique, different and beautiful.
Naturally, I started incorporating elements of Goth fashion into my own wardrobe. People took notice and began asking if I was a Goth. My instant response being “I’m not quite a Goth, I’m a Bubble Goth” and that response usually gets a puzzled expression.

Bubble Goth is definitely new and not very well known and I understand why people would be curious to learn more about it.

Bubble Goth was created a number of years ago by singer/songwriter Kerli. Many people started to call her a Goth after her first album come out due to its dark lyrics and spooky visuals.
Trying to be offensive, a critic called her a bubble gum Goth. Kerli thought that was genius and explained her perfectly and so Bubble Goth was born!
According to Kerli, “It’s all about
putting together light and dark, opposites, and things that you don't really necessarily think go together” …it is all about making dark things beautiful and beautiful things dark. It’s a combination of cute and gross, evil and good.
I am really interested in the twisted ways this fashion is portrayed … For example; cute teddy bears wearing gas masks, over-sized studs and spikes, pastel colours, rhinestone covered skulls etc.
Kerli also attributes her beliefs in angels and fairies to be an influence in her music and her style due to lots of white and floaty fabrics, where her Bubble Goth style is full of colour, studs, spikes and adorableness!
In her music video ‘Army of Love’, she is seen combining the two. Platform shoes, dreadlocked and braided hair with lots of volume, over-sized rings with rhine stone covered gas masks ~All in while… Almost like an albino Goth.
Although the whole entire outfit is in white, it is still visually striking due to the fabrics used and how they are used. Such as the mixture of leather and lace, contrasting but due to the Bubble Goth style they don’t clash.
Kerli’s style reached out to me due to my own personal style that is Bubble Goth related, even though I’m not so publicly extravagant I like to incorporate the theme with in my daily fashion routine so I was inspired to use a Bubble Goth theme for my study.
I chose the colours pink and blue as I find they complement each other well although I have found that using pastel colours would have been a much more suitable idea and would give it more of a sense of Kerli’s style.
The darker pink hearts are subtle and flattering but with the black out line, they really pop and scream Bubble Goth, especially with the spikes following the neck line and seam line up to the shoulder pads. Almost gives it a girly warrior look.
As the bodice had the most detail and was the most dominant part of the garment, I tried to balance it out with incorporating the blue at the top and bottom, as well as the studs and spikes that are featured on the shoulder pads and the edge of the skirt. Also, the fastening of the bodice is also incorporated with the blue due to the two shades of ribbon.

A lot of changes were made throughout the brief such as the neckline. The sweet heart neckline fitted in well with the Bubble Goth theme but unfortunately when cutting out the template I made a few hick ups and set the neck line too high. But I managed to correct it by cutting away the sweet heart and making it into a V-neck, which I think works very well as it allows more attention to go to the shoulder pads and to the chest area in a flattering way.
I originally decorated a bird claw in rhinestones (just like the skull pendant) as a feature on the skirt, but in the end it didn't look right dangling there and I couldn't think of any other purpose for it.
I came across another problem and it was that the shoulder pads were positioned too far back so when worn, they didn't sit on the shoulders properly and that I didn't leave a lot of room for the arms to go through comfortably. I detached them then I was left with tatty straps, so with left over blue material, I decided to make tubes for the straps to slot into to cover the ruined part of the straps. Almost like an extension. I then re-attached the shoulder pads in the correct position.
Another main influence to my design idea’s was Harajuku which is a variety of styles including gothic Lolita, Kawaii and Cosplay all from Japanese culture which is mainly cute and Bubbly and the styles rarely see the colour black due to its inhabitants of pastel and bright colours.
I have taken my garment out for a ‘test run’ to see if I can identify any faults.
Some aspects with the skirt are in need of re-thinking if I come to make it again. While walking some spikes managed to unscrew themselves and drop off and wearing the skirt on a windy day isn't a wise choice either… If I was to make the skirt again, I would chose detailing to be all studs as they are firmly hooked on and that the skirt should be made a little longer or include a lot more net.
The bodice is comfy and keeps me well covered, all though the weight of the shoulder pads is very clear due to the straps sneakily dropping with every few steps I take, that can be resolved by a thicker strip of ribbon placed higher up at the back, or have less spikes and glue included.

Over all I am pleased with my finished garment and I think that everything I have included strongly highlights Bubble Goth.
If I was to do this project again I would think about the use of colours and shades more as my garment would look a lot better in pastel pink and blue as it would look softer, but have the shock factor of the studs, spikes and chains. 




Looks alot nicer in person! ~ Lighting's a little off

. . . ~So that's the review of my dress that everybody was asking me about .. I hope you like it and i will be sure to create many more things in the future!


Im actually really exited about my new assignment in fashion class! ~For my 15 hour exam im basing it on Japanese food ^w^ .. There were some really dumb exam questions to pick from, like 'Land and Sea' <--- I mean really?! .. 
But food is pretty easy to base stuff on! .. Kawaii food project will be pretty fun and i have until April to play around with stuff! ..

. . . ~Speaking of playing around with stuff, i've dyed my hair again and its gone black! .. it was meant to be a warm chocolate brown...... and my extensions don't match and the dye as made them go all patchy ... Thank god im ordering a new wig at the end of the month ^o^ ..


Thats it for this post <3 Until next time sweeties! <3 


Peace~Love~ Integrity 


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Thursday, 24 January 2013

New year.. new blog.. New everything! ~Hopefully


. . . ~Its been a long while since i've last updated this! . . Due to it being the a new year im hoping to blog alot more or at least once a month . . Im even considering to change the layout and to tweak things so my posts are a little more fresh faced! ^w^


~ Picking up where we left off ~
As you know, my nephew pasted away last year and its been really rough on the whole family . . But good things come out of bad situations ~A journalist contacted my sister around a month ago and wanted to print Lucian's story to the news paper . . It touched so many hearts that 3 more news papers wanted to print the story also . . We then came to find that his story has reached countries all around the world and people have sent my sister messages on how she has helped then with their own births of their disabled children and how she is an icon to mothers everywhere . . A day time TV show 'This Morning' has even asked her to be a guest to talk about her and Lucian's tragic story in detail due to my sister also getting hate mail . . So she wishes to clear things up as people are getting the wrong end of the stick! . .

Before the papers, Lucian's memorial website started of with £400 of funds raised for SAND's charity (still born and neonatal death) . . And ever since his story has gone global it has managed to raise £1347.50! 
If you wish to visit his website the link is http://lucian.johnson.muchloved.com/ ^x^



. . . ~I attend to try alot of new things this year such as new food and activities . . Im also gonna throw myself into the deep more often and do things out of my comfort zone . . Next month is MCM anime convention and due to not being able to afford anything cosplay im planning on wearing the dress i've been making in college! . . It's almost a finished item  and it's turned out better then i thought! . . It's very Harajuku/Bubble Goth! . . I should really get a good few snap shots of me wearing it once its 100% complete ^x^

. . I got bored the other day and thought i would wack out my paints! . . I ended up creating a super cute picture of killer teddies attacking a cupcake from space! . . 


x Im really proud of it and it didn't take me that long at all! x 


. . . ~I've brought a lode of canvas's and i plan to get more arty this year! . . Just need to invest in more paint due to running low (╯x╰)

Speaking of investing! . . I need to stock up on candles and crystals! Not so much on herbs, i have enough dried herbs to last me until spring where i can grow my own again . . It's so nice to freely talk about my hobbies ever since i came out of the 'broom' closet and i don't recall mentioning it anywhere on my blog! . .

Well ...

Im a Witch!
And have been for many years . . People have had inklings that im odd ~I talk to tree's and stare at the moon for hours on end . . I get the usual cuss from time to time and i've even been called a satanist! which i find so amusing because 'Satan' is Christianity based and im from a whole different religion . . Paganism does not medal with the dark arts . .
And i also get asked if im a white or black witch now and then when infact there is no such thing . . I am neither yet i am both . . I am both because nature is both (good and evil) . . I never do harm to others as i don't want harm to come back to me . . What a witch sends out in her magic, she gets back 3fold (3 times as worse/better) . . My whole belief is built around Karma . . People say i sacrifice cats and im into devil worship, when in fact all i do is make soaps, herbal tea, good karma charms, healing amulets and play around with rune stones and horoscopes ^w^ . . 

I find it quite amazing that people jump to conclusions and ideas when they know nothing of the sort . . And its quite sad that a person who has no knowledge of what a persons belief is yet they go on and cuss and make a mock . . Im more then willing to answer any questions about what i do and why i do it . . All it takes is for a person to listen and understand . . And what people don't know is that i know around 37 witches in Telford alone! . . So people who mock us is infact surrounded! 

. . . ~Im planning on posting pictures of spiritual stuff and talking about spells that go well but i don't plan for it to take over my entire blog . . I have other stuff to talk about ^W^


. . . ~I think that concludes today's blog and i think its the longest entry i have published! ^o^. . *High Five!* . . .


Peace~Love~ Integrity 


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Monday, 5 November 2012

Really Slacking

Hello again! <3                               . . . ~5'11'12~ . . .


. . . ~I have some bad news and some good news .. the GOOD news is that, my Nephew was born .. The BAD news is, he didn't make it ..
. . . ~ My beautiful little nephew Lucian Haydes Johnson is now a beautiful little angel in heaven ♥ . . .Born at 3:17am on Tuesday .. Went to sleep 9 hours later.His Mommy and Daddy gave him a chance at life knowing that he would be severely brain damaged.. Doctors thought that he would last minutes, but Lucian fought for hours as he wanted to give back to his lovely parents that same chance .. A chance to 

spend time with him.. ..Lucian defied medical science as a team of experts worked on him for 4 hours trying to make him breathe via machine.. Until he was past over to his mothers arms and his father calling his name, in which then he let the oxygen tank breathe for him .. I guess all he wanted was his parents .. Miracle in its self..
Now he is all snuggled up with my great Auntie Terry and great Auntie Angela watching over his Mommy and Daddy ♥
He will always be with his family in our hearts and where ever we will go ♥ His funeral will be held on Tuesday the 13th of this month .. Sleep tight little boy ♥ we will always love you ♥




It looks as if he's sleeping <3 


. . . ~Lately i have realized that i am, defiantly still in love with my ex boyfriend .. But this ex isn't Ross i will have you know! .. 

They say you never fully forget your first love .. And they're right .. Which is the crap part aha! .. 


I guess that it for today my angels <3 .. 




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